2020 Ravens
Posted: June 15, 2020 1:14 am
If I'm lucky it will be midnight on June 15, 2020 by the time I finish this post. I have a lot of thought running through my head and if I can only get them down on "paper".
So much of the time I do not want to say anything, because I think it's, for lack of a better word, stupid, or maybe people don't care or maybe I am just flat out wrong. If I've learned anything in the last 13 years, at the very least I'm being stupid. I can't care what people think, especially here, I've shared almost every important thing in my life that has happened. I have to share this. My best thoughts, thinking is when I am as mad as I am now, and now it has become more important than ever. Six or seven years ago, it was just the beginning, we are far enough into things that I am seeing things, the way they really are, how people really are.
Indecisive to be polite, spineless, gutless, to be blunt.
I think about my grandfathers, often, daily. Not everything they did good, damn sure not everything they did bad.
They always knew what they were doing, no questions, and I make sick of living in this in between bull.
Are we having fun or are we competing? I know where I stand on things, everyone else seems to have no clue. I am out there for The Man, everyone else just benefits from it and everyone else is going to have to understand that from now.
I was just half second from getting to the good stuff, but it reminded me of the most important issue that is bothering me.
A conversation between me and my brother in law. Not a soul in the world but the two of us. No one could hear, no one would know it ever occurred, expect here. There is one player on this team that is a leader, the leader. And here's my most important point. I have been influenced, biased, by conversations I have heard, and then I watch everything from several different perspectives.
My own, number one. Through the camera lens. Through the eyes of John and Chuck, my grandfathers. There are the guys that just don't have that IT factor, there are guys who are the troublemakers and there are the guys who just float in the middle. There is one guy that everyone flocks to, that one guy who puts everyone on an even keel, that one guy when he collapses the house of cards comes down with him. Someone needs to make it clear to him that he is THAT GUY. I am done waiting for coaches or parents or teachers to realize this.
He makes Miles Davis look like Steve Urkel.


About 3 inches from a Grand Slam on this hit. It landed on the warning track, he's playing with his buddies and he loves it, but they are anchors around his neck.

So much of the time I do not want to say anything, because I think it's, for lack of a better word, stupid, or maybe people don't care or maybe I am just flat out wrong. If I've learned anything in the last 13 years, at the very least I'm being stupid. I can't care what people think, especially here, I've shared almost every important thing in my life that has happened. I have to share this. My best thoughts, thinking is when I am as mad as I am now, and now it has become more important than ever. Six or seven years ago, it was just the beginning, we are far enough into things that I am seeing things, the way they really are, how people really are.
Indecisive to be polite, spineless, gutless, to be blunt.
I think about my grandfathers, often, daily. Not everything they did good, damn sure not everything they did bad.
They always knew what they were doing, no questions, and I make sick of living in this in between bull.
Are we having fun or are we competing? I know where I stand on things, everyone else seems to have no clue. I am out there for The Man, everyone else just benefits from it and everyone else is going to have to understand that from now.
I was just half second from getting to the good stuff, but it reminded me of the most important issue that is bothering me.
A conversation between me and my brother in law. Not a soul in the world but the two of us. No one could hear, no one would know it ever occurred, expect here. There is one player on this team that is a leader, the leader. And here's my most important point. I have been influenced, biased, by conversations I have heard, and then I watch everything from several different perspectives.
My own, number one. Through the camera lens. Through the eyes of John and Chuck, my grandfathers. There are the guys that just don't have that IT factor, there are guys who are the troublemakers and there are the guys who just float in the middle. There is one guy that everyone flocks to, that one guy who puts everyone on an even keel, that one guy when he collapses the house of cards comes down with him. Someone needs to make it clear to him that he is THAT GUY. I am done waiting for coaches or parents or teachers to realize this.
He makes Miles Davis look like Steve Urkel.


About 3 inches from a Grand Slam on this hit. It landed on the warning track, he's playing with his buddies and he loves it, but they are anchors around his neck.

























